Losing them

We are all losing the ones we thought will be with us forever. We might believe that we can or have moved on, but the truth lays where when at some point of the day or night the thought of them suddenly strikes us. Humans, we love may not be with us but something always take us back to the moments of our togetherness, when everything felt simpler and easier. The pain seems to vanish as we indulge ourselves in other things. Days pass and everything falls back into place, but then there are days when the hole inside you feels so raw. When everything comes flashing back when it becomes harder to breathe. You try not to cry and you feel that pain in your jaws from holding back your tears, the lump in your throat makes us feel how much we are holding back. How much we are running away from and the truth is everything is actually not okay. We still miss them and we still want them back in our lives.

Some of us vent out, cry as hard as we can, bring out the pain in us, and that is our way to fill up the hole inside us. And then there are some of us for whom saying out their pain aloud feels harder than keeping it inside. we cannot just shed our tear, put on a bandage, wipe our eyes, and get on. Call us brave, or call us cowards, we never know who we truly are. We don’t get to decide, to hide our emotions or show them. We don’t get to decide if we want to weep or sit aside staring blankly. We don’t cry like normal humans; we don’t get that privilege to do so. It becomes so hard for us, and the pain inside us becomes unbearable. It keeps on increasing with every tear that decides not to shed. It all just keeps welling up, and one day it finally explodes. In alone dark places, we take out all that is inside us, that our heart no longer can keep.

The worst part is that no matter how much we want we never know when our wounds rip open. When the bandage slides off and it aches again, and bring back the memories. the time you lost your best friend, the one you thought was always going to stay suddenly seems a stranger. Or the time when you thought someone was the love of your life makes you realize the real importance of you in their life. Or the time when your mentor or your ideal suddenly vanishes in thin air, in a world, you aren’t even aware of. You are just left with an emptiness, an inescapable pain, a hole that never ever fills up completely.

We may promise ourselves a thousand times that this time it is going to be different, that we will hold to each one that we love, but life, it has a funny way to surprise us. No one can fill that hole in our hearts. Losing them breaks us. Who are we going to tell this, who will make them realize that we miss them and want them to come back, make things as happy as they were?

If you are reading this, and you miss someone, I wish your pain lessen. if you left someone, go back, you might find them waiting. And if you know that the one you love the most is never going to come back, I wish I knew what to say or to tell you what to do with your broken heart, because I pray every day for someone to tell me what to do with mine. I am as clueless as you are, and we share the same pain. I miss them as you do. I wish I could get them back, life with them would’ve felt less complicated.

Feel strong, because you are!

There is so much for us to do, so many things in which we indulge ourselves and forget what it is like to be ourselves. We become what everybody wants us to become. We focus on what is it that we are lacking, what is it that other people have and we don’t, and then we try to mold ourselves into it, into someone we are not. Many times, our failure in doing so leads us to develop hatred for our own selves. Rather than analysing how we are different; we compare how we can be the same. We develop this feeling of inadequacy that we never overcome. 

Everyone has a personality of their own and that is the only thing that makes them different from the crowd, and making that difference your weakness is neglecting who you truly are. It means turning your face away from your reflection. We are not who other people think or say we are, we are who we believe we are. Humans easily get feelings of insecurities, jealousy, emptiness just because someone else we think is better than us, but everybody makes mistakes at times, has areas of weakness, and things they want to change. Nobody believes that they are perfect because they are aware of their imperfectness, they know where they are lacking, so they cover it up to show the world that they are flawless. 

No matter what your past holds, no matter what burrow your future is in remember that the ending isn’t written and the future isn’t fixed. We are free to change our image, free to mend ourselves, free to mold ourselves into a better version whenever we want. Identify the lies we have believed about ourselves and work on changing them so they’re more accurate and truer. Our feelings are not the same as facts. We shouldn’t live based on them because they will keep us trapped.

It’s in our hands how we take ourselves in. if we keep hating who we really are, or think that we have lost the room for improvement, we will never be able to break our cocoon and spread our wings. If we hesitate in embracing ourselves then no one else will. Hang out with those who see, and who appreciate our worth. And take their words to heart, let them help us in blooming. Our spring is near, hold on tight.

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Untangle your life from all the knots of your failure. Nothing can stop you from being who you are. Your failures, your choices define you no matter how bad they are, they make you the person who you truly are and trust me it’s always for the best. You are here because life cannot be smooth always, you need the crispiness too, and these moments where you feel you are devastatingly lying in the pool of your own sorrow are just the inevitable crisp in your life, like the tomatoes in your burger or the chillies in your lunch that you try to avoid but still swallow. Remember these moments will stay with you just like the burning taste of the chilli…only for few moments until you drink enough water to neutralize it, work hard enough that the taste of failure starts to fade and just the way you don’t know how much sips of water you need, you never know how much hardships you will need, but eventually your life will be sweet again.

It is so easy to feel guilty and depressed when you see how successful other people are, but know that they too have gone through what you are suffering from, they just might be better at hiding it; I mean who wants to showcase the times they fell, but they too were on the ground once like you are now. They were struggling to survive, strangling themselves from the world’s pressure but the biggest thing that they did was to get up and continue. This is what you have to do, even if your knees have bruised from the times you fell or your heart feels that it will explode, just hold on. I am there for you until you gain the courage back to face the world again, until you catch a breath and get up again.

The world is moving fast, but not fast enough for you to lose track of it. You might fail again, start late, but you wont miss the train, I promise. You may get the last compartment of the train but the better part is you are on it, and once you’ve started, in no time you will get on the first compartment, just keep walking. IT’S NOT THE TIME TO STOP, IT’S THE TIME TO KEEP GOING. WHAT IF YOU FAIL? WE ALL DO. AS LONG AS WE DON’T GIVE UP, THERE IS NOTHING THAT CAN STOP US FROM GETTING WHAT WE WANT.